Heart Matters

Once I was broken, Once I was lost, There was a time When wounds were open And lines were crossed. Once I was crying everyday, Once I could see no other way, My mind was wrapped In holy lies, My heart was trapped, My dreams were capped, But they couldn't close my eyes. Sometimes a blessing, Sometimes a curse, My eyes wide open, kept on guessing The beauty of my universe. Each open wound, a scar to be, Each line that's crossed, a way to see The path that carves in truth and strength, A better shape of Me. With every shape My heart grows stronger, And thoughts of cowardly escape, Are gone, and I no longer wonder Was I at fault or was it faith. Once I believed there was no hope, My hands were tied but I could see, These ties were nothing but a rope I'll use to climb to where awaits A better shape of Me.

Memories in boxes in my mind, Lost and forgotten over time, I thought I left them all behind, But here I am unpacking boxes. One by one, they feel like a ghost town, I found the one that was weighing me down Like a makeshift tent on a verge of a breakdown, Like a Stonewall crashing on the edge of a playground. Piece by piece I turn back the pages Of the past I locked up in cages, Some soaked in tears, Some burnt at the edges, Some painted black of my younger years. "Leave this box in the past!" My mind screams, "you must!" Ashes to ashes and dust to dust, But the dust and the ashes Are burning and robbing my heart of trust. I can't close this box like a door, The lid I have doesn't fit anymore, But I keep it close to my heart Grounded in time like a nail in the floor That won't break apart. Unpacking this box was no easy task, And cleaning the memories of cobweb and dust, But what happens now? I wonder and ask, What do I do with parts of the past All sor